May 2009
“That they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be...”
– Big Fish
“When was the last time you wanted to say it all to the right person? To have it...”
– Henry Rollins
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i’m questioning this, i’m questioning patterns, wars, suicide, dating, love, hands on activities, suburban homes and mothers with kitchen knifes and collagen lips… i’m questioning drugs and cheap highs, the need to live in numb bodies, with numb minds, the need for more, the need to look cool while losing your mind…
i’m questioning college, spending money for...
““I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is...”
– Sylvia Plath
“May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope...”
– Neil Gaiman (via littlemiss)
<3 I hope this for everyone
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You know what I’m really craving lately? To be totally alone in a place I have never been. I would have no obligations, no job, nothing. Just wander around and think, observe, document&183; I would love it, absolutely fucking ADORE it. Just view all the life around me, all of their feelings sort of radiating off the sidewalks and park benches. It would be electric. I need to find...
“Others are going to start doing the things you talk about doing. The right time...”
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I am writing this in celebration of avoiding delirium that was self-induced via sleeping pills. I would compare myself right now to a negligent self-medicated mother who needs an escape. Except, I don’t need an escape. I just wanted to go to bed on time, and then I found myself lemon-zested with thoughts and whatnot. I suppose my comparison could be better, but that is basically the tagline...
“Think enough and you won’t know anything.”
– (via quote-book)
Listen
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my mom and my sister left town today, just me and dad for three weeks. i’m really nervous and i know everyones expecting a lot from me. i have a lot of growing up to do and a lot of shoes to fill. this is definitely going to be a hard month.
i'm such a coward asdfhj
+can you please just be straight forward with me? just tell me how you’re feeling or not feeling because right now i’m going crazy standing on this hollow middle ground. +i really wish you could just stop. stop looking at me with this big sad eyes all the time, i feel like i can see right into you and i don’t want to anymore. +who are you? honestly, as a person, who are you...
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I know in the past I’ve caused you pain, and I’m sorry. And I’ll always be sorry till the day I die. And I hate this pen I’m holding, because I should be holding you. I hate this paper under my hand because it isn’t you. I even hate this letter because it’s not the whole truth. Because the whole truth is so much more than a letter can even say. If you wanna hate...
I know that starting over is not what life's about. But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth. But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth. My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth. My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth. My thoughts were so loud. My thoughts were so loud.
the library is my new best friend again, horray for putting our differences aside! reconciliation is such a beautiful thing, honestly. so life is kind of going downhill again and books are again going to help me pull through. schools almost over, my mom and sister are heading out of town til june 10th, and upon their arrival comes my vacation away from them again. i’m so excited to leave...
