July 2009
June 2009
Remember the music, and the joy he gave. Remember the dance moves you tried to imitate. Remember the best moonwalk you ever saw. Remember the out of this world videos that will live forever. Remember? That is Michael Jackson. That will always be the Michael I remember. I didn’t know another.
I guess now I’m done posting about him.
The feeling of ridiculousness has been the prevalent of all emotions as of late. I don’t know what is causing me to be ashamed of my personality. Maybe it’s just the realization that I do ridiculous things like illegally download the new JoBros album and be excited to actually listen to it, or tanning in my backyard because I don’t want to look so pale at the beach. Or using bad...
“To me, science and music, it’s all the same. There’s no difference between the...”
– Mike Einziger
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I’m dizzy for embarassing reasons. I won’t go into detail. I might fall over.
Ring-a-ling-ling. Ding-a-ling-ling. Oh Black Eyed Peas, thou art so superficially delicious.
AleeMedinaa: rofl yesterday i saw this big ass pigeon that looked like an owl, right above my head, and i almost started crying cuz i got so scared.
stephasaywhaat: LMAO
AleeMedinaa: it was terrible
AleeMedinaa: i looked up for like 2 sec
AleeMedinaa: SAW THAT BEAAASSTTT and started running, screamed a bit, and my eyes started watering
AleeMedinaa: the homeless guy on the bench by the train station where i live started laughing hysterically
“since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things?”
– e.e. cummings
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the box labeled YOU is kept sealed tightly in the backshelf of my mind no, not forgotten - not forgotten at all just avoided because you are - complex, unpredicatable a can of worms i will not reopen
“The opposite of love isn’t hate, it’s indifference.”
– Elie Wiesel (via littlemiss)
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it was a little less than a year ago that i was laying in the grass at nights alone dreaming about spending my summer over there with you. now that’s what i’m doing and i’m scared and excited and im feeling a million emotions in one. i’m so sick of people, i love it over there because everyone is so fun. almost sickingly fun, but there are no limits and it’s...
i’m dissapointed in myself for wanting more. i’m dissapointed in myself for expecting something from you. i’m dissapointed that i’m so dissapointed.
i’m just really dissapointed in general
“It isn’t the mountains ahead to climb that wear you out; it’s the...”
– Muhammad Ali
i resolve to be more positive i resolve to love myself i resolve to let go of things and i resolve to try and fix what is still fixable.
Oh boy
So my mom and sister are finally home. My sister looks great. She finally got the boobs she wanted. With their arrival I knew that my time to leave would be right around the corner, but no. After a huge fight over how underage drinking is completely natural where I’m going, and how there was even weed at the house I’m going to be staying at, my mom really doesn’t want to let me...
“Smart women love smart men more than smart men love smart women.”
– Natalie Portman (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
“Be as you wish to seem.”
– Socrates
“People don’t want their lives fixed. Nobody wants their problems solved. Their...”
– Chuck Palahniuk (via sparo) (via homecoming)
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Amelie is playing in the background. I assured myself that the French would be soothing, but, in the end, it has proven to be far more distracting than predicted. There is a sort of layer of pain covering my skull. I have not slept in 17 hours. I feel an ache under my eyes. It’s almost as if I can feel the skin underneath them bunching up to display my fatigue. My mind is slowly shutting...
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Oh, boy. I have this renewed sense of vigor I haven’t felt in so long. That surge that makes me want to leap in the air in a Superman position. Onward ho. I am fairly certain the cause of this renewed sense is the fact that I’m actually leaving again.
I mean I went from me going hands down no questions asked, to it being a maybe, to it being a maybe leaning towards a no, to me being...
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I’ve always been a Twitter naysayer. I cannot stand that website. It serves no purpose to me…and yet the past few weeks I have found myself wandering around Miley Cyrus’ and John Mayer’s accounts out of pure curiosity, and then I did the unthinkable…I also got an account. The minute IT asked me to make my first Tweet, I had to bang my head against the table. I did it...
“You were happy once; you were sunshine and smiles and a brightness that...”
“Look at her, she’s smiling, but is she happy? She’s smiling, so it doesn’t...”
– Mona Lisa Smile
“And all the books you’ve read have been read by other people. And all the songs...”
– Perks of Being a Wallflower
“Your handwriting. The way you walk. Which china pattern you choose. It’s all...”
– Chuck Palahniuk, Diary
“Keep your fears to yourself but share your courage with others.”
– Robert Louis Stevenson
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I realize that these thoughts are not mine alone, that I am probably very unoriginal. It probably isn’t a big deal. I am alive and well, always with at least two meals a day, and virtually get almost anything I ask for.
It has nothing to do with my parents. Really. I was just lying there on my bed thinking. I usually get what I want. Always told I am smart and talented. I have good friends,...
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i talked to my sister today. she mentioned the whole me leaving for the whole summer and mentioned how my mom doesn’t want to let me leave now. i was speechless waiting for a good ass reason. her reason: there’s to many boys and no supervision. are you kidding me? i’ve grown up with all those boys, and the ones i’ve recently met…well my cousins are there damn it. yes,...
“The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you...”
– Stephen King (via creampuff)
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i always tell myself that i will be happy, i’ll be happy when it’s summer, i’ll be happy when college starts, i’ll be happy at home. but i’m never really happy, or i rarely am at least. i’m not talking about stereotypical happiness, i’m talking about simplicity. i am happy sometimes, don’t get me wrong. i’m happy when i don’t have to...
“I don’t know what’s worse; to not know what you are and be happy, or to become...”
– Flowers for Algernon
“Of all the words of mice and men, the saddest are ‘It might have been.’”
– Kurt Vonnegut
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+ i think about you all the time. your existence confuses me, i want to talk to you and have you talk back and care about me and listen. but you being there is enough, knowing that you still exist, that you still could come back into my life is enough. i don’t think i’ll forget you, i can’t let go of you and the things you make possible. + it’s you. it’s always you. i...
