July 2009
7354.) I hate that we both know that there...
I’m sleeping over Leticias’ today, she should be here soon. We’re going shopping the next day and eating frozen yogurt for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. It’s so good here, honestly. Then later that night we’re meeting up with Claudia and going out to some club here with a whole bunch of our guy friends we haven’t seen in forever. I’m excited but mostly for...
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Drunk in a bedroom I stumble over words. I trip and fall over the complexities of verbs and nouns, colors and sounds. The lights in my eyes are so dim now, You made them so bright. Tonight I will drink too much And watch out the window Waiting for my torch to relight, To rejoice in the sweet music of your arms. I will go kicking and screaming into this evening. I will recollect those phrases...
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He left now to go work. He didn’t say anything on the subject, mainly because he didn’t say much at all. He came upstairs just in boxers with his clothes in his hands. He gave me a look and my head sunk. Then while putting on his jeans he said “I’m leaving, I’ll be back later.” He went into the bathroom, wet his hair a little, then came out and held me. I...
I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m so dizzy. The room is spinning, my stomach is turning. I can’t stay still, I can’t sleep. I have the hiccups. The vomit doesn’t want to come out. I’ve never felt this before, I don’t want to feel it anymore. I want out.
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I’ve changed. I’ve always said I wouldn’t sacrifice much for a boy. My life plan has been to travel around the world, to help as much as I can, to design, to create, to adopt kids, and to write for a while now. My mother always says that that will soon change once I fall in love. I always told her she was wrong, that I was going to to do what I wanted to do and that if a man...
“The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past...”
– Marcel Pagnol
Oh boy, I love the beach. The water is so damn clear and warm, it’s unreal. On the way back I realized that I feel as if this is my life now. I can’t imagine my home life as anything but miserable now. I shouldn’t have come here, it’ll probably end up making things worse for me. Now, I’m doing something daily. There’s always someone who can take me somewhere and...
We’re going to the beach again today. I’m running out of sunblock, I need to buy some. I’m not gonna shave for today hahaha. I just don’t feel like it and you can barely seee. I need to upload pictures, I think I’ll do that tonight.
I don’t even know what else to say, there’s so much I could say that it all just becomes one big confusing jumble and it all...
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You really need to stop playing the guitar that way, singing me songs that low, and looking at me with that shine in your eyes. I can’t sleep anymore, I’m to busy thinking of you.
Never Have I Ever
I‘ve never watched Titanic. I’ve never read Pride and Prejudice. I’ve never been drunk. I’ve never played Laser Tag. I’ve never skipped in a public place. I’ve never sung at an inappropriate moment. I’ve never cried over a movie. I’ve never cried reading a book. I’ve never cried while watching a TV show. I’ve never owned a music player. I’ve never made a Twitter. I’ve never read anything by...
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The boys are at the gym and I’m just sitting, waiting, wishing :P I’m sitting at the computer, daah, on the third floor watching True Blood and it’s soo hot, damn. I’m waiting for Karla to come and for Leti to drop off my monaay. We’re going to Deep tonight, it’s this club/lounge where it’s only teens from 15-19 years old and when there’s a party...
fmylife:
Today, I caught my little brother peeping at my friend getting dressed in the bathroom. When I asked him what he was doing he said “I’m just doing what Ray does to you while you’re in the bathroom.” Ray is my new step dad. FML
oh shit
“If you wake up at a different time and in a different place, could you wake up...”
– Chuck Palahniuk
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I’ve reached the point where I don’t feel like going way into detail about my days. We did go to the Beach House though, it was fun. Since I got here I had a lot of mixed emotions, I was doing fun things but I wasn’t really enjoying them? I don’t know I felt uncomfortable but not anymore. Everything I was worried about cleared up and nothing is going to feel weird. I love...
I don't know where to start
So my plane ride couldn’t have been more amazing. Honestly. The Ft.Lauderdale airport is really easy to get around in. I’m pretty much already super familiar with it. Jet Blue! Oh man, why hadn’t I flown on it before. The ticket is cheaper and every seat has it’s own personal tv in the seat in front. The tv has 100 XM Radio channels and 41 Directv channels. They were giving...
“There will always be people in your life, Sweet Angel, who hold you back, who...”
– You knew that, The Universe
“Who was she? What did she do?
She was Herself, She did it all.”
– I want this said at my funeral. I have to live up to it. 